Couple steps back. . .  Think I might have overdone it yesterday. Couldn't stay asleep so Elizabeth gave me an ambien. I spent the rest of the night with weird seizing in my abdomen like when you wake yourself from falling in a dream. Sleeping harder meant less hydration so I woke i'll with a crushing headache and  terrible nausea and the damn!!??.catheter is not working right. The stress of that alone makes me lightheaded. Feeling really alone and helpless right now. I hate posting with my phone. I am hurting. I am tired. I am scared something will go wrong.